EXHIBITIONIST

note that this is not the term for a person who handles an exhibition booth

taken from Dictionary.com

ex·hi·bi·tion·ism
1. The act or practice of deliberately behaving so as to attract attention.
2. Psychiatry. A psychosexual disorder marked by the compulsive exposure of the genitals in public.

Inspired by miss iris's latest entry....i began to refresh back my encounters with exhibitionist or known as flasher...

as we were discussing over a brief lunch previously about our experience bumping into a flasher/incidents ...i was surprised iris had never had an encounter...nora had one.....
and me...unluckily i had more than 5 cases.....

first case :
when i was in primary...walking to Kelly's house....near this park where i'm staying known as "Padang Asam" ...i heard somebody calling...and when i turned to look...this middle aged man was cheerfully waving at me with one hand...and the other hand busy stroking and flashing his dick!...i ran as fast as i could to Kelly's house and told her in heavy panting

second case:
somewhat similar to the first one...the only difference is that it happens infront of me and some other friends having an evening chill out at some park....and the dude didn't exactly called us...i accidentally saw him through the bushes....wanking...

third case:
alone again this time around....walking infront of the primary school opposite my house...a car suddenly stopped by infront of me...he unzipped his pants and flashed to me...i pretended i wasn't looking and walked as fast as i could....

fourth case:
by far the worst.....i got into a crampy bus with gee after hours of waiting....as we were in..i was clinging to the pole...infront of me there was this dude ....around 5 mins after the bus moved...he sneakily pinched my breast and gave me an innocently-filthy smile!...i was like "WTF?!!!!!".....silently screaming to myself.......
believe me..i wanted SOooooo much to scream and make the bus driver stop and force him to leave ...instead i just gave him a sharp anger content of stare and turned around...and hinting gee to get out on the very next stop without telling her...she was confused..but obeyed...we finally took a cab ride home...

fifth case:
sunway lagoon.....the public pool....nearby was 3 men ...at first staring and smiling...the next thing i know...one of their filthy legs were between my crotch!...f**cker.....when i looked ...they were still smiling....and again i couldn't scream...literally feeling like my tongue was tied...i just went to another spot...

sixth case:
i got myself a part time job before entering uni...at a retail...selling shoes mostly...but i'm in kidswear section....on the very FIRST day of job....3 men was deliberately looking for kids underwear asking me for certain sizes....and finally asking me questions like "what size r you wearing?".....this time around...i threatened him to leave before i call the guard who's standing nearby....

7th and ongoing cases:
As much as my housemates and I enjoy swimming at our condo pool....we notice the guys too enjoy watching....okay...fine....i too sometimes look at other people swimming from my floor....just to ease the eyes not lebey2....but there's an incident where we notice being secretly watched from behind windows....lama...and when we look back(kasi diorang malu..sebab kantoi)...they don't have a single bit of urge to stop watching(ewah ewah...melancap ke?...)....
even worst just recently....when i was swimming..i notice 2 guys from top floor holding a video cam .....if i want to be denial...yeah...they were just trying to record the scenery...tgk people from the next block punya ampaian...and what not.....ambik la ambik....

ni tak masuk lagi kes2 telefon2 lucah.....ish...

Mental-Muz quoted :

"There will always be suckers around who'll be looking for free/cheap fcuk. Dalam analogi Wongahbeng, mereka adalah spesis kumbang yg takkan mati walaupun diracun dgn racun serangga yg CikPMS usung kemana-mana tu"

the point is....if you have sisters/daughters/friends/girfriends/wives...tell them to beware when they go around...especially young girls as they are prone to these kind of harassments...as these freaks take them as an easy prey....
if they do encounter these kind of things...they should leave some kind of remark such as screaming or reporting to people nearby...show these suckers they can't get away with things as such...and hopefully wouldn't repeat the same thing to other girls....

itu sahaja pesanan dari saya...mangsa gangguan seksual yang telah berubah dari seorang pejalan kaki/penumpang bas/teksi kepada seorang pembawa/pembonceng kereta...if it occurs to me now as it did before...(kalau dlm kereta) ...i would ram into those freaks....pasti mati(tips utk muz)...:P...

tagged by zuhri...

10 FIRSTS
first best friend: marrie anne...primary school
first item you stole: colour pencils (cikgu punya)...hahaha
first pet: cat - along (when i was in sabah)
first piercing: ears
first school: st. francis convent, K.K Sabah
first house location: *garuk kepala...sabah again..taman milek
first crush: some guy name amir...in primary
first kiss: i don't kiss and tell..hehehe
first car: wira aeroback

9 LASTS
last time you smoked: a few months back...this does not make me a smoker..saje puff2
last food you ate: maggi mee
last movie you watched on dvd at home: memoirs of geisha
last movie you watched at the cinema: mean creek
last text message: syafiq "ukm takde air..terpaksa merempat mandi tpt lain"
last music video u saw: erkk..the ones at karaoke counts?
last song you listened to: laskar cinta - dewa 19
last words you said: sakit peruttttt....

8 HAVE-YOU-EVERS
dated a best friend: no
been arrested: no
been on TV: almost..so..no
eaten sushi: yes
cheated on your BF/GF: yes
been on a blind date: yes
been out of the country: yes
been in love: yes

7 THINGS YOU ARE WEARING
1. a one piece dress..
2. undergarments...
3. not enough
4. not appliclable laa
5.
6.
7.

6 THINGS YOU HAVE DONE TODAY
1. class
2. makan
3. tido
4. swim..k.i.v..main yahoo pool
5. updating thesis...k.i.v
6. reply comments on my blog

5 FAVORITE THINGS
1. notebook and streamyx
2. camera
3. hp
4. micro hifi
5. ps2

4 PEOPLE YOU TRUST THE MOST
1. family
2. gee, jaja, nuren, rini
3. myself
4. housemates...at least if i stink or gain a few kilos...they would honestly tell me..hehehe kan?

3 THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. yes..mcm zuhri..pergi menunaikan haji
2. travel around the world....if i could choose only one...venice ..during carnevale
3. complete some things left unsaid/undone

2 CHOICES
vanilla or chocolate: chocolate
rock or rap: rock

1 PERSON YOU WANT TO SEE RIGHT NOW?
myself in 10 years time or myself 13 years back

i'm tagging the following people :

1. pinky
2. mellifluousz
3. jilly-centric
4. muz
5. betik

I remember one scene from the movie "face/off" , the part where caster troy's(nicholas cage) house was raided by the FBI .....at gun-shooting fights, the director john woo was projecting the scene of a little boy... ears covered in headphone to an old song which goes.. - "Somewhere Over the Rainbow" by Arlen Harburg
one of the best cinematography i've ever seen in a movie ....
the director was trying to show the incident through the boy's view....
u have to watch it to understand...

How does a child view the basic concept of life?

LOVE

....i was watching "Love Actually" on astro yesterday ...there was a scene of a dad and his son....conversing about love...dad was surprised to learn his son admitted he had just fallen in love.....and he said.."it's impossible....you couldn't possibly know what love is"

It's not a new thing we hear in primary schools...where a boy/girl confess that they like someone..."kite suke la kat awak"....."suke" might not be as strong as "love".....but looking at the basic concept ....love is too about attraction.....so they probably do understand love ...more than they understand hurt/pain/rejection....being kids..so pure and honest...they choose to just tell out their feelings without thinking of consequences being rejected or mocked by the other party......
or..probably they do understand pain/hurt....if so they choose not to tell the girl/boy that they like them....they will keep on feeling those rush inside...and to them...that might be painful or hurtful?
naturally kids strive for love from their parents and family....
the older we grow the more we tend to hide what's inside of mind..what's inside of heart



BEAUTY

i once watched a documentary on how children decipher beauty..a test was run on a toddler where 2 pictures of respectively a pretty woman and a not-so-pretty woman was displayed, the child seems to draw his attention more on the prettier woman ..just like adults....even a toddler can come attracted to beauty ...
but if you try to approach kids...and they don't like you..jangan la terasa plak nooooo....it could just be your body odour....
*kids love me...echeh!...hahaha



ROLEPLAYING

little girls child's play would usually be the typical "main masak-masak" or "main kawen-kawen" or "main make-up make-up"....generally the things that they are bounded to be stucked with when they grow old.....
while little boys immitates every being of heroic characters they ever come across with...."captain planet" , "gaban" , "kesatria baja hitam" , "spiderman" , "batman"...tak pernah pulak terdengar ade budak nak jadi "sin chan" or "doraemon" or any weaker character.....
the point is....boys role always revolves around becoming a hero , becoming the man, the person who takes charge of things, and the girls always want security, self-esteem, to be taken care of, needs a hero to protect them...ironic to see life's design which was naturally brought upon us...what's the point of defying?



SEXUALITY

A rather sensitive issue for some....adults always tend to protect kids from being exposed to sexual-related contents...they do not realize that kids are exposed or learning to decipher sex even at home ...well-protected and filtered from outside material ...and the word sex is a 'taboo' and forbidden...

but sooner or later it will come to them eventually..only we do not know where and how they will first encounter sexual knowledge....in school?...from friends?....porns?...why look for answers outside when things are building up around the home itself....for instance ....displays of affection between husband and wife...touching...and kissing ...and intimacy ...in our community ...do we regularly see this happening in family institutions?.....most couple would say "not infront of the kids"....we might not think the kids will decipher this as sexually as we do(this explains why couples refuse P.D.A)...but don't you think the kids will decipher that intimacy happens only between a MAN and a WOMAN....



let's just say...our son watches porn with his friend...and it happens to be a gay porn....it's his first sexual exposure....it could be confusing and stimulating at the same time ....do you think it'll end there?...won't he be fantasizing later on for who knows what his fantasy would turn out to be like? .....so the informal sex education helps people...

DREAMS

"que sera sera...whatever we'll be we'll be"....
i've heared lots of different answers when a child was asked about their ambition....
a BOY said he wanted to become a stewardess - a woman flight attendant
my little cousin said his option is between a lorry driver and a doctor...
i myself have only heard of few job options which is commonly...doctors, engineers, lawyers, scientist....
i wanted to become a doctor...and then it was a scientist :first to invent cure and antidote for AIDS ...and then astronaut....to be the first to pass through "black-hole"...and a few other ideas which crosses between fantasy and reality...i will not mention all of it here...up until now...it still changes according to my latest and current passion....
if i were to choose....i would want to stay a bummer and a dreamer....
a child has that luxury....to dream...to fantasize ...to think outside of boundary....to be imaginative...creative.....kids scribble and paint wherever they can....on the walls....on papers...on notebooks....
they are drawn to colours....and playground......
they play toy guitars... air-guitars....and they're rock stars one day and they're a superhero another day....in video games ....they can become many different characters
but there will come a point where grown-ups will interfere and say..."stop dreaming..it's not real....get back to your books and study and do your homeworks....if not, you'll get a scolding from your teacher".....
there will come a point where we really do stop dreaming ....and focus....



HUMILIATION

If a kid falls down and trip infront of you or a number of people...don't stare, gag, scream or panic ....act like nothing happened...because they will first pause and look around them....to see our reaction...if you act like you care....they'll start on a small cry ...and later burst out crying like hell...if you just act cool....they will get up ....and then start playing again...
perhaps they understand humiliation more than they understand pain don't they?...:)
saje manje..ngade2...nak attention orang besar je tu....
but of course..if you see wounds or blood on them....panic like you are about to be washed away by tsunami OK....do not act cool ....do not try those at home...!
and do not come about blaming me for the tips....:)



i can't believe i wrote this long.....there will always be more....
i'm no expert in these matter..just a matter of personal opinions and on how i perceive how it would be for a child to understand life ....surely they have a loooonnngg way to go....

Goodbye the dull and pale look of the old gamelan studio....
although the new one doesn't look any close to a make-over by casa impian...but OK la....penat siot cat bilik...cat alat lagi...

yes...i can't think of other title ....so i decided just to write what i literally feel.....
pening-pening lalat....just woke up ....(i slept really late last night)...why do i have to mention that?... :)

Previously on MSN messenger :
scenario - status war

after a series of status bombing......

lyaxiyr - "you're being irrational at 3 a.m in the morning"

aynxiyn - "i don't think a BOY really understand what irrational means"

lyaxiyr - "the BOY you gave your heart to?"

WTF?!!!!!.....i'm just gonna stop right there....it pisses me off even more than it already has....
first of all i couldn't believe i got myself tagging along the immature act of status war...(which then later i pm him)....to no avail of peace...
i wish i could just stop and draw my focus back on reading my notes for tommorow's exam...but i was just so disturbed ...."the BOY i gave my heart to?" monologuing or i'm just simply losing it.....
the real question is..."when did i ever give my heart to you?" not you...not anybody as far as i'm deliberately concern......
it's as though he's having an "imaginary relationship" with me...as the words described by iris...

it ended with 2 international calls on my cellphone which i refuse to pick up

....would it make me more rational if i were to pick up his calls?..and then what?...

i rather be irrational than daydreaming about something that never ever happened...

I'm divided between saying it's a good show or just another seemingly hot stuff paid through electronic media ......

the opening was splendid.....i was stunned by Ac Mizal's opening appearance..and his voice...and the contemporary ethnic Music....the dancers..the settings...the props...it was all so lively and lovely...
but throughout the play....i got very dissapointed by mainly.... the songs....it was all so western..so broadway-like....i could even stop and think wether am i in the wrong set of play?...was this suppose to be "sound of music" musical?..or pocahontas or something?...

i didn't step foot into istana budaya last night with an expectation...i didn't expect it to be traditional nor modern.....i was just ready to be sunked into the moment where there is just the tale and the ambience and the music that plays the role...not the actors...not the audience

Perhaps they wanted to diverge slightly away from the classic genre ...and the ideal plan is to modernize the songs so people wouldn't yawn halfway through...but come to think of it....the reason why people came(if i may speak so in general) is to actually see a CLASSIC musical theatre...if they're looking for something western....why even bother to come?

stephen rahman became an issue before the play started...many have questioned his ability to play the role of Laksamana Hang Tuah...well...he tried....but trying and genuine is certainly a different concept...but he gets the credit for his singing....i know now why he was selected...but boils back down to the song issue...stephen certainly have the voice for western broadway music...so ...this was not much of a difficult task for him...it got me thinking..did they purposely arrange the music so that it would fit him in the limelight?...



well...aside from those...AC Mizal deserved the big round of applause during the cast line up ..for his brilliant performance...he moved from singing to gerak khas to screen acting....and his final stop in theatre has certainly proven the best
achievement throughout his career chronology....well...tiara...remains tiara...i think she have invested and devoted herself for something she really has the passion for...i have to say..it pays off....to the very least of her own satisfaction...i would want to become her...rich enough to buy a boat to carry her dreams...:)



it was worth the rm30 (student discounted price..with the seat behind the VIP grand circle..hehe)..but if i were to pay more....i'd request for different song line up...hehehe...(suke hati je..buat teater sendiri lar horr?)

dang people...i still haven't got the time to get the comment box problem fixed....
it's just a hectic week...i couldn't be bothered....
err...try commenting on this particular post people?...

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