muz...you gotta love this



hahah this is even shorter than my previous post.....i lURVEEEE html codings!

I just don't have the urge to write....
but i do have the urge to waste my time in between doing my work....

I'm back at that stage where i call myself a mass of mess
or ....someone would rather call me a dissertation journalist...:)

I know i'm stressed-out when :

• I seldom blog....even if i do....i'll reply tags......or even if i do...i write about how busy i am....or my thesis progress....and i reply comments about how my thesis is killing me softly...
• high-rise of food consumption...or at least...i need a man chocolate to soothe me daily
• i started talking in programming language
  
• i'll report my status on MSN/ YM status bar ...with a busy icon....
• i sleep at wee hours doing my work....and wakes up early to continue then go to class...then when i come home...i'll get back on the work and the books...repeating the same thing....for a few days..and say...the 3rd day...my body gets so exhausted that i can even fall asleep while i'm driving...
• I decline invitations for fun time and socializing
  
• I don't get to go to the gym
• I don't see much of my parents even on weekends...( i sometimes make myself do my thing in my parent's room )
• I forget days and dates and time...
• I have the higher urge to clean the room/wash the bathroom/cook or whatever to divert me from the stress
• I started becoming disorganized and started losing things...like my dear planner...how can i be organized when i lose my planner?
  

the title of a korean film i watched yesterday...
which i ended up in tears....
it's been a while since last cried from watching a movie (the last time was after watching final destination 3 at the cinema ...it was tears out of shock..during that scene...u know...ala u know....* i don't want to spoil it for those who haven't watch it)

it's an intense movie about a man dealing with his young wife with alzheimer disease...
although the vcd cover stated that it is a korean "fantasy" movie.....and as i was discussing with my housemate wether there is such person who would do such things (taking care of their partner in their sick/old days and sacrifice a lot of things along the way)....i automatically answered "ade"

i don't live in fantasy .... i live in reality which was brought upon me....some might call it "fate"....
as fate's best witness....having a mother with breast cancer and a father who's eaten up with old age....i do believe god is fair....knowing they're destined for each other ....
she has her support from all of us...but the person to be best responsible for all her courage is.. my dad...the one who not only shares the same bed...but also all her pain through the nights..

He's not afterall a perfect man...he had his flaws in the earlier days...he always have problems dealing with sick people before...he's an emotional person (which makes him a passionate man)....but my dad adapted really quick...and well.....
i guess this is what they call adaptation...
one has the potential of being that person....from the moment they were questioned/question themselves wether they're willing to adapt the consequences...and monologue their answer into a 'yes' or 'no'

i know about real stories of people who leaves their spouse after finding out they have a disease ....that is too...a reality.....who ever said it's always pretty...

• i'm sure you guys know what this is.......my life....
• make-up bag...memang messy...i always have a hard time looking for tiny things
  
• port perasan...cermin pinky yang sangat amat berguna untuk keperasanan
• port jiwang.....my second hubby
• erks....buku-buku yang tersusun rapi
• port handbags..gabungan pinky dan saya...
• port handphone...right beside MY side of the bed..senang jaga alarm hp..ritteeeee
  
• anti-kepam....sangat berguna untuk menghilangkan bau-bauan dan menambahkan wangi-wangian
• micro hi-fi...my second life ..enuff said

• Koleksi tag-tag persembahan, event yang dihadiri, disertai...
• Cd-cd yang berjasa untuk backup files from the computer...err..and downloaded stuffs...zuhri...ini bukan bisnes bajakan ye...sendiri membajak je..:P
• Planner baru...courtesy of kak salmah....yeay!...but..recently..i lost my planner...huhuhuh...habis contact2 penting...adoilaaa...
• pinky's..
• mine
• dvd boxsets, vcd series, ps2 games
• PS2...i'm outdated..no psp, no ps3(belum keluar maa)..yg ni pun berhabuk tak sempat main
• ermm..mostly pinky's
• mostly mine..all mine indeed...hehehe..i know2....mmg pemalas basuh baju...kumpul 1 week..blk rumah subang baru basuh pakai machine..if u ask me why...i'll answer : "because i can"...nuff said

• this is not my life...but i cannot live without it...so canne?
• this one...saves my life over approximately 7 days of bleeding without dying
• pinky's goggle and my swimmingcap
• ahh...of course...if i'm done with playing guitar...i'll just let Jack Johnson and the rest soothe my ears....
• Nina's Pandora's Box....important stuffs in here..don't ask ..
• emm..not much contribution to my daily life...but time2 assignment dateline...rakan sejati
• kotak zebra yg dibeli khas untuk dipadankan dgn corak carpet..
• fancy files.. and certificates....
• hmmm...painting of me...courtesy of milx
  

I'm officially a certified gamelan instructor after a year leap of training(2 years instead of 3)....i hereby congratulate myself for this self-achievement :D....

I've handed-down my post as the Vice President of The Club ....finally ...a big relieve... i can now concentrate on my final fight for graduation....



I will certainly miss all the things i've gone through...the people i've encountered...throughout my involvement....and thankful for all the experience i've gained...



So ...the purpose of posting this up?....i dunno..perhaps anyone would want to hire me as a trainer?....hahaha self promoting myself plak....




ituje la nak cerita...takde bende nak cerita....hehehe

Tagged by Zuhri

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Medium
Sloth:	Low
Envy:	Medium
Lust:	Very Low
Pride:	High

Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

Answer these questions:-

1. greed - what luxury item did you last buy?
hp notebook

2. gluttony - what is your favorite food?
at the moment...tom yam at bbb tom yam inn bangi...and...tosai paper!

3. wrath - what makes you angry?
people who are way off the ground...and no respect to people ESPECIALLY to someone older..

4. sloth - when are you at your laziest?
home ...subang..home....

5. envy - what brings the green-eyed monster in you?
people with no problems...ehh tak logic....people with less problems..hehehe

6. lust - what / who do you lust after?
what :D...9 lusts people 9 lusts....who....ermmm more than 9 people more than 9...

7. pride - what are you most proud of?
sense of art without having any talents in art

saya dengan ini menisytiharkan telah menjalankan kewajipan menjawab tag zuhri....
no tagging for today...:D