I have a peculiar pattern of incidents when it comes to paying something at the cashiercounter...where i don't seem to have small change ready ...and everytime i get tangled in this kind of situation....i always get the bad gestures from the cashier...
Even when i politely say "mintak maaf makcik/pakcik/dik/bang...saya takda duit pecah"...
i usually get the reply of "

TSK!"

or an inverted smily face ...

or even worse....i got a sarcastic remark once which goes like this

"....Haiiiihhhhh....nak beli air mineral sebotol punnnnn...nak pakai duit rm50...." with a very makcikly intonation

goshh...it's not like i'm paying you with credit card...

so from the same pattern throughout my observation..I always get myself prepared with small change whenever i want to go to these places...

1. Some R&R restaurants - Almaklumla...jauh from the bank..almost impossible to prepare small change to customers....let them prepare for us lahh..

2. Some busy foodcourts such as Hartamas Square - Hello...tak nampak orang ramai ni....tak kuasa kay nak layan ko nyer duit baki nih!

3.Public Transport ticket counters - Go to the automated machines laa...go get some coins...shhh shhh..can't u see i'm busy

4. Kedai Photostat - banyak ko punya cantik..photostat sekeping..nak bayar pakai RM50 ..ko igt bapak ko punya kedai ka...peeeeegggiii daaahhh...*gaya p ramlee

5. Autopay Parking Ticket Machines - u turn around ...trying to catch the eye of the person behind you...hoping to get some sympathy..that they would spare some change...they turn their face and look behind...ermm....understand..understand...they need the change themselves..

What to do..u can't expect people to have courtesy to spare some small change for you...let alone replying in a nice manner asking you to change the money elsewhere....so....sediakan payung sebelum hujan....

But...on the other hand...
there are safe places to go without small change.

1.McDonalds or any Food-Chained restaurants....
2.Petrol stations...
3.Tollgates
4.High classed restaurants

Maybe they hold a different concept...big money means money...

Okay...it's about time i tell myself to SNAP OUT of the gloomy mood...
even so....I'm not completely back at 100% ...it makes me ponder...when did it ever reach that scale?
I was having a conversation with my aunts about going shopping for raya and all...
and i told her..now...i only go for anything between the discount range of 50%-70%....
and she replied ..."aahhh...sekarang baru kau tau..."....i was convinced she was referring to the ME back then when mom was still around..or to be a little bit more specific....when i wasn't earning my own money...nothing matters but getting what i liked at first glance ..then and there..:D
*sigh...
i indeliberately said to my little cousins...."duit raya korang also got discount ok...70% less"...

It suddenly strucked me that 70% lingers around to be quit an important figure to measure life condition at current moment....

social level - 70%
confidence level - 70%
articulate level - 70 %
eating level - 70%
sanity level - 70%
patience level - 70%
artistic level - 70%
enthusiasm level - 70%
horny level -10%

some might say 70% is a load of gain....but looking back at when we were in school...getting a 70% in exams is good..but not good enough ..not to you...or at least everyone else...
so what u do next is to work harder to gain that 30% more or so...

same rules applied...

i'm not a greedy person...if i can improve the yield by a 5% would make me smile a little while...
it's a load of hard work...especially when you don't live alone in this world ....
anyway....i might not achieve a full total of 30%...but i'll give it a 100% try...
that wouldn't hurt ya?

70% sleepy...
signing off...for now..

A few more days to go ......

Hari raya....and the 3rd day of hari raya would be the 40th day my mom passed away.
My sis in law gave birth to a baby boy last monday...everything denotes to something memorable in the past few weeks ..
I could not imagine how this Hari Raya would be for us ...It's already different on the outfront...the preparations...the emotions...although everyone is trying really hard to make it as normal as possible.......it will never be the same...not this year or the following years ahead...
It's hard trying to take over her role in the house only to find out that i can never BE anything near to her....it comes to an end where i realized that i'm just a daughter who lost her mother and stays lost....
I just missed her so much....