Saturday, December 31, 2005
Happy New Year
I just completed my last event with Generasi Gemilang group....Alhamdulillah it was a success...
a 3 days 2 nights camp.....i'm telling you it was so..so ...tiring...
the "compass gila" activity really put a test to my physical and mental energy...i think i almost passed out....we were required to walk up and down the hill to look for certain check points...and return back to report....there were 5 check points all together...so just imagine walking in the mids of night...pitch black...with the help of a few torch lights...and nothing else....it was pretty creepy.....
I'm not kidding...it was really exhausting....
and the next morning...we had to go for jungle trekking.....and not to forget the "obstacles track".....arghhhh....but i'm so satisfied....i went through everything...i'm not so much of the wild-life-sporty type.....it's all about challenging myself....
the closing night....i participated in the "opening act" for the "culture night".....i acted in a short play....it's been a while since i last act..i guess i still have "it"..:)
I am now peacefully resting at home....having a mild sore throat...and pretty convinced i'd fall sick in a few hours more....
Today was a nice day out...shopping....i haven't done this for quite sometime....
and at night...i went to Istana Budaya, to watch this musical composition of fusion between traditional and modern instruments called "Paluan Nakasari".....of course...they have a touch of my favourite traditional music "gamelan",and a lot of percussion....some cak lempong, some angklung...interesting combination i must say...
new year resolution....will remain a mystery.....
i won't be partying this year...i'm falling sick.....cancelled the party plan....but i'll be going to ...erhm erhmmm..peter pan concert....just to patch up the last show i missed......from next year on...i'm planning to go to more and more art, musical, theatrical shows around......perhaps participate in theatre group or something..........
a pretty good wrap up for the year 2005.....
welcome 2006
a 3 days 2 nights camp.....i'm telling you it was so..so ...tiring...
the "compass gila" activity really put a test to my physical and mental energy...i think i almost passed out....we were required to walk up and down the hill to look for certain check points...and return back to report....there were 5 check points all together...so just imagine walking in the mids of night...pitch black...with the help of a few torch lights...and nothing else....it was pretty creepy.....
I'm not kidding...it was really exhausting....
and the next morning...we had to go for jungle trekking.....and not to forget the "obstacles track".....arghhhh....but i'm so satisfied....i went through everything...i'm not so much of the wild-life-sporty type.....it's all about challenging myself....
the closing night....i participated in the "opening act" for the "culture night".....i acted in a short play....it's been a while since i last act..i guess i still have "it"..:)
I am now peacefully resting at home....having a mild sore throat...and pretty convinced i'd fall sick in a few hours more....
Today was a nice day out...shopping....i haven't done this for quite sometime....
and at night...i went to Istana Budaya, to watch this musical composition of fusion between traditional and modern instruments called "Paluan Nakasari".....of course...they have a touch of my favourite traditional music "gamelan",and a lot of percussion....some cak lempong, some angklung...interesting combination i must say...
new year resolution....will remain a mystery.....
i won't be partying this year...i'm falling sick.....cancelled the party plan....but i'll be going to ...erhm erhmmm..peter pan concert....just to patch up the last show i missed......from next year on...i'm planning to go to more and more art, musical, theatrical shows around......perhaps participate in theatre group or something..........
a pretty good wrap up for the year 2005.....
welcome 2006
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
Money Money Money Money!
singing to The Apprentice theme song...
i got a call from freescale semiconductor this evening...I didn't actually get to pick up the phone...thanks to my stupid phone ...it went off dead ....
but i know what it's about...*smiling widely*....
my cheque is ready.....
yeay.....although sometimes i do feel empty...atleast i know i'll no longer be dry...
good day people!
i got a call from freescale semiconductor this evening...I didn't actually get to pick up the phone...thanks to my stupid phone ...it went off dead ....
but i know what it's about...*smiling widely*....
my cheque is ready.....
yeay.....although sometimes i do feel empty...atleast i know i'll no longer be dry...
good day people!
The Fairytale of The Face,The Ghost and Cruella De Vil
The Face
is a proud man
is fond of Cruella De Vil who lives in another country
he does every approach to hint her about his feelings...
ever so trying to impress her....
he would travel miles away just to see her...
would send the singing bird just to hear her...
Cruella De Vil
Cruella De Vil do not know why she is evil
It's not easy being Cruella De Vil...she has many enemies...she sees everyone as her enemy beforehand...she has to be mean so that she won't be loved..therefore she won't love..and thus she will never get hurt....and if she's never hurt...she won't hurt others too...
Cruella De Vil do not know why she was born evil....
She sees The Face as Boy...when all she ever wanted was a Man...to tone her evilness down
Cruella De Vil strongly believes there's a difference between "a Man who tries to impress" and
"a Man who just takes your breath"
she chosed the latter...even so it means taking her breath out of "LOVE" or out of "DEATH"
she takes The Face's steps of approach as being persistent...the one quality that she despise
The Face
He could not longer stand her mental challenge...her subtle verbal attacks...her evil spells
He backed out.....
Cruella De Vil had had her victory....
He was never to be seen or heard again....
The Ghost
He came out of nowhere..whispering from the woods....appearing in her dreams once in a while
His face was covered with golden mask....his words are made to bind her evil spirits..
He Promised that someday truth will reunite them...but he's always worried truth will hurt Cruella De Vil...and she said...nothing is sure but LOVE and DEATH
Cruella De Vil smiled ...as no one can ever remember seeing her smile
then one day...The Ghost was challenged by Cruella De Vil with tricky questions.....and to her deadly surprise...it hits her that The Ghost is actually the same person as The Face is..
Cruella De Vil is just helplessly furious....she felt deceited when she's not even being lied to....just to prove her right when she said he was persistent...when he was The Face...he clearly knows things were going nowhere...and so ...he came out with this whole idea of a mystery man..to get close to her...how more persistent can he be?...he claimed that Cruella De Vil stereotyped The Face...and that if he did not approach her as The Ghost....she will never see the other side of him...Cruella thinks the other way round...if she were to like him as he is...it'll be his every goods
and every flaws altogether as who he is......she will never settle for liking the half of him mysteriously...and the other half is just history...and so she said to him..before the truth brings disaster to things....she decided that she didn't want the truth...she didn't want to be united...and so he left...and as he did....it was "death" for The Face..and The Ghost
is a proud man
is fond of Cruella De Vil who lives in another country
he does every approach to hint her about his feelings...
ever so trying to impress her....
he would travel miles away just to see her...
would send the singing bird just to hear her...
Cruella De Vil
Cruella De Vil do not know why she is evil
It's not easy being Cruella De Vil...she has many enemies...she sees everyone as her enemy beforehand...she has to be mean so that she won't be loved..therefore she won't love..and thus she will never get hurt....and if she's never hurt...she won't hurt others too...
Cruella De Vil do not know why she was born evil....
She sees The Face as Boy...when all she ever wanted was a Man...to tone her evilness down
Cruella De Vil strongly believes there's a difference between "a Man who tries to impress" and
"a Man who just takes your breath"
she chosed the latter...even so it means taking her breath out of "LOVE" or out of "DEATH"
she takes The Face's steps of approach as being persistent...the one quality that she despise
The Face
He could not longer stand her mental challenge...her subtle verbal attacks...her evil spells
He backed out.....
Cruella De Vil had had her victory....
He was never to be seen or heard again....
The Ghost
He came out of nowhere..whispering from the woods....appearing in her dreams once in a while
His face was covered with golden mask....his words are made to bind her evil spirits..
He Promised that someday truth will reunite them...but he's always worried truth will hurt Cruella De Vil...and she said...nothing is sure but LOVE and DEATH
Cruella De Vil smiled ...as no one can ever remember seeing her smile
then one day...The Ghost was challenged by Cruella De Vil with tricky questions.....and to her deadly surprise...it hits her that The Ghost is actually the same person as The Face is..
Cruella De Vil is just helplessly furious....she felt deceited when she's not even being lied to....just to prove her right when she said he was persistent...when he was The Face...he clearly knows things were going nowhere...and so ...he came out with this whole idea of a mystery man..to get close to her...how more persistent can he be?...he claimed that Cruella De Vil stereotyped The Face...and that if he did not approach her as The Ghost....she will never see the other side of him...Cruella thinks the other way round...if she were to like him as he is...it'll be his every goods
and every flaws altogether as who he is......she will never settle for liking the half of him mysteriously...and the other half is just history...and so she said to him..before the truth brings disaster to things....she decided that she didn't want the truth...she didn't want to be united...and so he left...and as he did....it was "death" for The Face..and The Ghost
ILLUSION
credit to MILX for the painting
New Resolution Before the Eve of New Year
i lied...i don't have a new year resolution..or yet
i watched chronicles of narnia...i don't give much of a good movie review...but fairly saying that Narnia is not like the best fantasy movie ever...but as all fantasy movies always get away with things...they can suck and bloom out of absurdity....the war scenes are far from the normal epic where the leader gives a "war spirit speech" before instructing their first attack(this one usually makes me cry..like..."waahhhh"!!!!high spirited)...
....indeed the kid just waved his sword...*sigh*...the "kid" surely gets away with it because he's just a KID
...i still remember the excitement when i watched "neverending story" back then...was it because it was really a good movie...or was it because of my age...the age where i began to mix fantasy and reality....where "atreyu" is like the pure hearthrobe who saves the day....
it's the school holiday..and the year end...a lot of movie are out...i hardly get to watch all of them..just look at 'em crowds at cinemas...
i watched chronicles of narnia...i don't give much of a good movie review...but fairly saying that Narnia is not like the best fantasy movie ever...but as all fantasy movies always get away with things...they can suck and bloom out of absurdity....the war scenes are far from the normal epic where the leader gives a "war spirit speech" before instructing their first attack(this one usually makes me cry..like..."waahhhh"!!!!high spirited)...
....indeed the kid just waved his sword...*sigh*...the "kid" surely gets away with it because he's just a KID
...i still remember the excitement when i watched "neverending story" back then...was it because it was really a good movie...or was it because of my age...the age where i began to mix fantasy and reality....where "atreyu" is like the pure hearthrobe who saves the day....
it's the school holiday..and the year end...a lot of movie are out...i hardly get to watch all of them..just look at 'em crowds at cinemas...
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Psycho Instant Messenger
"good night all the BITCHES in the world"
i received this message through YM messenger from someone in my list...yes...someone i consider a new friend...
at first..he was all this very helpful person who has a high passion in scuba diving...(i'm planning on taking up scuba diving lessons soon that i decided it'll be good if i could get some opinions and verbal lessons from someone with experience)...
and then one day i received that kind of treatment from him...like ..whut the fuck did i do?....i think my only crime was ignoring him when he's online..while i'm not even at my desk..sometimes i forgot to turn on that "stepped out" or "busy"..."be right back" mode....come on la weh...i'm online most of the time...but it doesn't mean that i'm literally glued infront of my pc dok layan people on messenger except you ....i could ignore anybody who buzzez me while i'm at the loo entertaining nature calls....senang citer...tgh sedap berak ...
so is it reasonable to get pissed?....gawd you're behaving like my ex..which explains partly why he's my ex...
some of the times...i put myself on "away" mode...but i'm actually online..doing some work...replying mails...surfing ...and reading blogs...or blogging...be whatever it may....isn't it obvious that i don't wanna be disturbed...well yes..i'm the fool...if i do not want to be disturbed...why log in to messenger?...why not just log off...or appear offline?...then what's the solely right purpose of "away" mode...if i'm really away...why not just log off from the computer and save myself a lot of electricity bills...suka hati la kan?...do i not have the choice of when and who i wanna talk to?...
gile la...why do i sound so pissed off?...i'm actually chillin...
i learned my lesson...which is to stick to surfing on the net about scuba lessons and centres around town...and befriend www.padi.com...
i received this message through YM messenger from someone in my list...yes...someone i consider a new friend...
at first..he was all this very helpful person who has a high passion in scuba diving...(i'm planning on taking up scuba diving lessons soon that i decided it'll be good if i could get some opinions and verbal lessons from someone with experience)...
and then one day i received that kind of treatment from him...like ..whut the fuck did i do?....i think my only crime was ignoring him when he's online..while i'm not even at my desk..sometimes i forgot to turn on that "stepped out" or "busy"..."be right back" mode....come on la weh...i'm online most of the time...but it doesn't mean that i'm literally glued infront of my pc dok layan people on messenger except you ....i could ignore anybody who buzzez me while i'm at the loo entertaining nature calls....senang citer...tgh sedap berak ...
so is it reasonable to get pissed?....gawd you're behaving like my ex..which explains partly why he's my ex...
some of the times...i put myself on "away" mode...but i'm actually online..doing some work...replying mails...surfing ...and reading blogs...or blogging...be whatever it may....isn't it obvious that i don't wanna be disturbed...well yes..i'm the fool...if i do not want to be disturbed...why log in to messenger?...why not just log off...or appear offline?...then what's the solely right purpose of "away" mode...if i'm really away...why not just log off from the computer and save myself a lot of electricity bills...suka hati la kan?...do i not have the choice of when and who i wanna talk to?...
gile la...why do i sound so pissed off?...i'm actually chillin...
i learned my lesson...which is to stick to surfing on the net about scuba lessons and centres around town...and befriend www.padi.com...
Sorry i Can't Relate....
"shit...i really need to go out and do something"...self monologing after days of wasted hours at home(casa villa-my*ouh*so*cool rental house)...
yeah we had fun talking and dancing...cooking and singing.....but i suppose i've had enough talking and singing and flirting...and all the "INGs" in the world.....
"i feel so restless by just doing exactly nothING"..says my housemate...somehow i felt like she literally took the words out of my thoughts.....so it's about time to watch and listen from other kind of sources...received an sms from a friend of mine...inviting me to this(according to her) performance ...so i guess there will be some hippie singing and guitar playing chill out night...plus her bf is performing...so i did not hesitate on accepting the invite...
it was held at this bungalow in seputeh...some hippie bungalow ...with art work pasted/lying around ...barely any furniture around...well it's pretty cool...people sitting on the floor and stuffs..memang hippies la...at the door we were asked to sign in the guestbook and to my surprise..there's a column where we had to actually write down our blog address..(hmm..i wonder how this comes in handy)...well anyways...when i reached there..somebody was already performing....this guy and his guitar with a good voice and good music and good wordings...and hence a few other performances...i should really name one(person) that i like..his song and singing i mean...jerome kugan...he looks pretty wild with his pierced nostrils..but when he sings...it's just so subtle...pretty much intact with his feminine side..:)..but i love it...and then..there was some readings..and screening of "malaikat di jendela"..(this short film was banned due to certain elements which is considered offensive).....after half time being there..i then learned that this whole scene is an act of activism...which is meant as a protest on "violence against women"...maybe i was being ignorant...thinking that it was just this whole artsy fartsy thingy...
then i started to wonder...why are there certain pattern in this whole activism movements...like...it will mostly correlate with arts....yes...they believe in freedom of expression...through art and music and performing arts they convey their message.. what happens to the less talented or not so artistic people who have believes on activism...how do they fit in the picture?...
maybe it's too soon for me to understand the real deal...i mean arts and music is cool...and i am one of millions who knows how to appreciate and enjoy it...
activism makes us ponder upon certain matters that are hidden under our nose......
sometimes it brings us awareness...sometimes it creates certain feelings of rage.....so when rage is brought into the light of arts...it becomes slightly darker than it should....yes...i know...your mind clicked of RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE....it becomes a sudden sin when someone likes RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE(the band..the tune) but they don't understand their hidden message in their music...dikutuk oleh golongan aktivis(this is an example of the scenario not my personal experience)...there are some people who listens to music and enjoy it as so...some people interpret music into ways of life...or similar experiences...so if we truly believe in freedom of expression...kenapa mesti ade kejadian kutuk mengutuk ni kan?...
as analytical as i wanna be in each aspects....I CAN'T RELATE to all these corners....
yeah we had fun talking and dancing...cooking and singing.....but i suppose i've had enough talking and singing and flirting...and all the "INGs" in the world.....
"i feel so restless by just doing exactly nothING"..says my housemate...somehow i felt like she literally took the words out of my thoughts.....so it's about time to watch and listen from other kind of sources...received an sms from a friend of mine...inviting me to this(according to her) performance ...so i guess there will be some hippie singing and guitar playing chill out night...plus her bf is performing...so i did not hesitate on accepting the invite...
it was held at this bungalow in seputeh...some hippie bungalow ...with art work pasted/lying around ...barely any furniture around...well it's pretty cool...people sitting on the floor and stuffs..memang hippies la...at the door we were asked to sign in the guestbook and to my surprise..there's a column where we had to actually write down our blog address..(hmm..i wonder how this comes in handy)...well anyways...when i reached there..somebody was already performing....this guy and his guitar with a good voice and good music and good wordings...and hence a few other performances...i should really name one(person) that i like..his song and singing i mean...jerome kugan...he looks pretty wild with his pierced nostrils..but when he sings...it's just so subtle...pretty much intact with his feminine side..:)..but i love it...and then..there was some readings..and screening of "malaikat di jendela"..(this short film was banned due to certain elements which is considered offensive).....after half time being there..i then learned that this whole scene is an act of activism...which is meant as a protest on "violence against women"...maybe i was being ignorant...thinking that it was just this whole artsy fartsy thingy...
then i started to wonder...why are there certain pattern in this whole activism movements...like...it will mostly correlate with arts....yes...they believe in freedom of expression...through art and music and performing arts they convey their message.. what happens to the less talented or not so artistic people who have believes on activism...how do they fit in the picture?...
maybe it's too soon for me to understand the real deal...i mean arts and music is cool...and i am one of millions who knows how to appreciate and enjoy it...
activism makes us ponder upon certain matters that are hidden under our nose......
sometimes it brings us awareness...sometimes it creates certain feelings of rage.....so when rage is brought into the light of arts...it becomes slightly darker than it should....yes...i know...your mind clicked of RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE....it becomes a sudden sin when someone likes RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE(the band..the tune) but they don't understand their hidden message in their music...dikutuk oleh golongan aktivis(this is an example of the scenario not my personal experience)...there are some people who listens to music and enjoy it as so...some people interpret music into ways of life...or similar experiences...so if we truly believe in freedom of expression...kenapa mesti ade kejadian kutuk mengutuk ni kan?...
as analytical as i wanna be in each aspects....I CAN'T RELATE to all these corners....
Saturday, December 10, 2005
The Build-Up
The build-up
Lasted for days
Lasted for weeks
Lasted too long
Our hero withdrew
When there was two
He could not choose one
So there was none
Worn into the vaguely announced
Worn into the vaguely announced
The spinning top made a sound
Like a train across the valley
Fading, oh so quiet
But constant till it passed
Over the ridge into the distances
Written on your ticket
To remind you where to stop
And when to get off
(repeat)
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Lasted for days
Lasted for weeks
Lasted too long
Our hero withdrew
When there was two
He could not choose one
So there was none
Worn into the vaguely announced
Worn into the vaguely announced
The spinning top made a sound
Like a train across the valley
Fading, oh so quiet
But constant till it passed
Over the ridge into the distances
Written on your ticket
To remind you where to stop
And when to get off
(repeat)
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Monday, December 05, 2005
Don't be fooled...it's another song lyrics...
for a moment i feel lost in my own life translation...
i couldn't write...partly because i feel like i don't have things to write about...but come to think of it...i've been doing a bunch of silly things that i could bitch about how silly it was..hehheh
i may want to add certain song lyrics to make blogging a lot simpler than having to compose my own draggy words.....which is according to this some dude who claims he's a cat(yang keji)....adding song lyrics in blogs are like making your blog seems like a lyric search engine....:) ...but certain lyrics do summarize your certain pattern of life...you literally feel like you're not the only one who went through this and that...
god..i've been doing a lot of gamelan shows lately...it drains me in exhaustion...making easy money and losing it easily as well....getting some red highlights on my crown again...helped by dear housemates...and unwanted plans day by day....waking up late...and end the day at wee hours....and happy hour..as explained in iris' blog....it sound tiring....but not so much fulfilling...
went jungle trekking last weekend...unplanned again...i only brought my 3 quarter gym pants...and that's exactly what i wore up trekking...i love the part discovering that i still have that "trekking Skills"...or was it i'm more excited knowing that i'm not that OLD....well at least...i can still handle pacat....and the guys attention whenever i spotted some pacat on my legs/hands...and i still can control my machoness...without screaming...:P
relaxing...
not exactly the december i've been waiting for...but it's without predicaments...so i have no complaints...
i couldn't write...partly because i feel like i don't have things to write about...but come to think of it...i've been doing a bunch of silly things that i could bitch about how silly it was..hehheh
i may want to add certain song lyrics to make blogging a lot simpler than having to compose my own draggy words.....which is according to this some dude who claims he's a cat(yang keji)....adding song lyrics in blogs are like making your blog seems like a lyric search engine....:) ...but certain lyrics do summarize your certain pattern of life...you literally feel like you're not the only one who went through this and that...
god..i've been doing a lot of gamelan shows lately...it drains me in exhaustion...making easy money and losing it easily as well....getting some red highlights on my crown again...helped by dear housemates...and unwanted plans day by day....waking up late...and end the day at wee hours....and happy hour..as explained in iris' blog....it sound tiring....but not so much fulfilling...
went jungle trekking last weekend...unplanned again...i only brought my 3 quarter gym pants...and that's exactly what i wore up trekking...i love the part discovering that i still have that "trekking Skills"...or was it i'm more excited knowing that i'm not that OLD....well at least...i can still handle pacat....and the guys attention whenever i spotted some pacat on my legs/hands...and i still can control my machoness...without screaming...:P
relaxing...
not exactly the december i've been waiting for...but it's without predicaments...so i have no complaints...
