"shit...i really need to go out and do something"...self monologing after days of wasted hours at home(casa villa-my*ouh*so*cool rental house)...
yeah we had fun talking and dancing...cooking and singing.....but i suppose i've had enough talking and singing and flirting...and all the "INGs" in the world.....
"i feel so restless by just doing exactly nothING"..says my housemate...somehow i felt like she literally took the words out of my thoughts.....so it's about time to watch and listen from other kind of sources...received an sms from a friend of mine...inviting me to this(according to her) performance ...so i guess there will be some hippie singing and guitar playing chill out night...plus her bf is performing...so i did not hesitate on accepting the invite...

it was held at this bungalow in seputeh...some hippie bungalow ...with art work pasted/lying around ...barely any furniture around...well it's pretty cool...people sitting on the floor and stuffs..memang hippies la...at the door we were asked to sign in the guestbook and to my surprise..there's a column where we had to actually write down our blog address..(hmm..i wonder how this comes in handy)...well anyways...when i reached there..somebody was already performing....this guy and his guitar with a good voice and good music and good wordings...and hence a few other performances...i should really name one(person) that i like..his song and singing i mean...jerome kugan...he looks pretty wild with his pierced nostrils..but when he sings...it's just so subtle...pretty much intact with his feminine side..:)..but i love it...and then..there was some readings..and screening of "malaikat di jendela"..(this short film was banned due to certain elements which is considered offensive).....after half time being there..i then learned that this whole scene is an act of activism...which is meant as a protest on "violence against women"...maybe i was being ignorant...thinking that it was just this whole artsy fartsy thingy...

then i started to wonder...why are there certain pattern in this whole activism movements...like...it will mostly correlate with arts....yes...they believe in freedom of expression...through art and music and performing arts they convey their message.. what happens to the less talented or not so artistic people who have believes on activism...how do they fit in the picture?...

maybe it's too soon for me to understand the real deal...i mean arts and music is cool...and i am one of millions who knows how to appreciate and enjoy it...
activism makes us ponder upon certain matters that are hidden under our nose......
sometimes it brings us awareness...sometimes it creates certain feelings of rage.....so when rage is brought into the light of arts...it becomes slightly darker than it should....yes...i know...your mind clicked of RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE....it becomes a sudden sin when someone likes RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE(the band..the tune) but they don't understand their hidden message in their music...dikutuk oleh golongan aktivis(this is an example of the scenario not my personal experience)...there are some people who listens to music and enjoy it as so...some people interpret music into ways of life...or similar experiences...so if we truly believe in freedom of expression...kenapa mesti ade kejadian kutuk mengutuk ni kan?...

as analytical as i wanna be in each aspects....I CAN'T RELATE to all these corners....