Selamat Hari Raya...
Maaf Zahir dan Batin...

exactly who am i wishing?....whoever is reading...provided that they celebrate the festive..

Hari Raya is a good day...it is...
It is just not as enthusiastic as it is when i was a kid....
i remember that i always had 3 baju kurung for raya when i was younger....and now...i just couldn't bother...and supported by the fact that i could always invade mom's closet and choose any of her glamourous baju...even if it's mom's old ones...it always looks new on me..well to the very least to others' weary eyes...

Well..Raya certainly doesn't make problems lighter...indeed it makes you feel literally heavy...due to the non-stop consumption of food....it provides you medicine from laughters ...from listening to jokes from old folks and relatives ...it makes you delusional of gaining a little extra money in the pocket.....or along the way back to Kampung...it gives you the oppurtunity to apologize to people you have done wrong to...or indeed ..hoping for apologies from those who have done wrong to you.....perhaps i'd be sued for not understanding the true lights of Raya...but honestly ..deep down inside...i share the same concept that Hari Raya is a Bliss....a blessing...whatever word that describes it as a good day.....like temporary happiness..like drinking alcohol (..coming from someone who doesn't drink..this is a little weird).......

for the whole month of raya...we're given the chance to do the deeds....whenever someone wants to get grumpy...or angry...someone..or some inner voices will tell them..."Raya ni"...
and it's the time to pay someone a warm visit....and the time for someone to boast on their newly bought funiture...or baju...and this time around..it's just okay to give or accept those recognition...it's the time where people harnest their cooking style...or skill...it's time to put a lot of make ups on...It's the time to visit the foster homes to give donation without having people questioning your intentions(correction...people still do...).....it's also the time to watch free malaysian released movie(after a year period since it was screened at the cinema)....i managed to watch "buli"...and thought it was quite okay.....some morale..some reality and honesty...some childesh cartoonish effect....but overall i thought it was good...i chose to watch buli over sepet(they were showing at different channels..same timing) ..surely that tells you something...

It's also the time where i got commented for gaining some weight...and the time where i got asked..."bile nak kahwin/tunang ni?".....repeatedly...funny it used to be "dah ade yang special?"...but now they just went straight to point where they think marriage is the most popular and suitable solution for my age.....*sigh*....i'd be cynical or sarcastic to answer "esok"...but since it was a bunch of elderly people who's asking...i have to do the usual version of the Gadis Melayu type...where i just look down and smile(tunduk malu tersipu2..konon)...now who ever says "Gadis Melayu Tak Menawan?"!....hahaha...god i hate that song!....

All in all....it's a good feeling....i have my cousin to BULLY and make her watch series at nights with me...but it always ends with her ...snoring....
and me blogging...
:)