at last thesis crazy is over.....
i did my presentation last wednesday...
submitting my proposal today..

i'm starting to feel like there's a predicted pattern in life,
just a week ago everything doesn't seem to go right....
with the hassle with my computer speed, which is delaying me from getting outcome for my thesis material, money became an issue although i'm not poor or neither i am rich, self-esteem is...wait..what self-esteem?.....my best friend cut herself....my family slips eye on me...my closest friends doesn't remember my birthday(i know i'm too old for cakes and candies and cherry pie....but the feeling of not remembered hurts!huhuhuh)....

but alast...one good thing comes after another....my friends were playing a joke on me...they planned not to say anything the whole day (making me feel useless shit....i mean hey...you guys won! alright..)and finally surprised me with the presence of my best friends from subang....and together with my housemates we celebrated....got myself a friendly kiss from a charming dude (you know who you are)....it was sweet...i love you guys.......

the very next day....i presented my thesis material ...although i barely understand what i had done, i managed to pull out a firm and confident presentation..hehehe i think i might have some talent in acting...and making shit look like a convincing flower....(pandai menipu ooo)...hehe....

and mom called....wishing me "welcome to the world baby"...i miss them so much...i just drove home straight after class ....and have dinner with them....

the pattern i was describing is that after a series of hassle ....comes a package of solution where you didn't even spend a single bit time thinking of....so i was thinking....all this while, we spend so much time and energy thinking of how to solve the puzzle, i realize that not all questions are designed for answers....as hard as it is to accept this fact, it's harder to be tied up with a dozen of questions without getting any answer in the end....some people are patient, and some are not to wait for things to come around that is i feel the differences between people who are always depressed, searching for the unseemingly unanswered life-question, while some of them just move on....

i'll let this hang here....you can go on perpetuating the subject while i just want to rest mind

thanks to my dear friends who threw a wonderful get together....luv you guys