*I might not be able to recall all of you...and what exactly i have done to hurt you...you know who you are..only you could remember every single bit of pain i've caused...*

I'm not egoistic enough to say that i sometimes mean to hurt.....look at it from this concept..

"i'm not a sun to please everyone"

...and in fact...even the bright sun could get a lil annoying to certain people...

Maybe it's a lil hard to believe that sometimes annoyance derrives from seeking too much attention from a person or even the "pretty-please-please-me-today" attitude...I work hard...seriously...with all my will i work hard to TRY to please everyone.....sometimes it just got out of hand....sometimes i sacrifice my time to do things that i should've done.......i sacrifice the matter i should focus on...sacrifice all in terms of energy, a space of time for myself , and most importantly my PEACE OF MIND.....

when it's just too much to handle...that's when things get pretty ugly...i DEMAND for my self-righteous mundanity....and being the highly-criticisive Bitch doesn't seem to turn pretty to certain people...i would inevitably conform to sarcasm under the sole purpose for others to regard myself as intolerable word-fireball machine...and bear in mind "stay away from this girl...she's no longer a human being".....

Truth is...It's not hard to get by without turning on the beast-mode of me ...by just being yourself...not even trying to impress me...and throw those.."herie..herie..look at me..i'm here" attitude...i..know you're there....unless i was being ignorant...i know....i'm a very silent observer...i open my door to almost enyone i encounter throughout my life....without them knowing...i open a secret door inside of me to accept them in my life..regardless of which position you stand for.......

my concept is quite simple...you want in...to a great win-win encounter between two human being...you're most welcomed...you want in for me to be all you want me to be....go get a nanny...i don't want a boy/girl to babysit...if i do...i would literally adopt an orphan and do so if my financial permits...and if you want in ...to bring me hurt....please do so...i'll leave a scar in your life in return....

along the way...my interpretion and perception towards people might have been slipping from it's course...i'm bound to err...for those whom i have hurt unintentionally....I trully am sorry....