What started as just a music certainly did not end half way as it always did to me in many areas of interest .....i might have changed from organ to guitar...from acoustic to classical....but apart of my indecision to pursue in only one stream , i have always whole-heartedly idulged in whatever music i was into...hope it might not appear to others as a sin that I don't finish what I started....more or less i don't give a 'sun'

The last obsession was gamelan....and NO... it didn't trigger since the Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam screening...if you were you to accuse...i would've been a folklore ghost legend already....
my first encounter was when i went to mom's graduate ceremony...when i heard this beautiful sound synchronizing with the silence of the hall..i knew someday i'd be making sounds on the shiny bronze parts on the lovely hand-crafted wood...

I forward what happened in between...I'm almost already a certified gamelan instructor ...enjoying the oppurtunities to perform at various cultural events, and shows at prestigious hotels...I'm beginning to wonder how much further can i get from here.....Once i came across an ad posting in kakiseni.com...saying that Rhythm in Bronze Gamelan team was looking for new players....with a package of nervosity and a very little confidence...i brace myself to go...invited a friend from ASK with the same passion to come along...also due to lack of confidence...but the invitation was sincere though....went through the whole auditioning process...surprised me to see there was around 40 of us came for the audition...all races...mostly studying in ASK...partly have or currently pursuing a degree in music.....i felt like a 'la-la-doo-dee-wannabe' among those people....first stage of audition went by...we were shortlisted down to 10....we were asked to perform an ensemble session ...and promised a phone call if we were selected.....so the very next day...a guy from RIB called...i even remembered his name..kevin...imagine how excited i was....only to kill the enthusiasm...he said i'd have to come for a second round audition..i was like.."what?!!!!"...inside my head....apa-apa je la....so i went...4 of us out of the previous 10 made it...i'm the only lady...my friend jay got in...another guy...an engineer from MAS..previously played with geetagangsa istana budaya...and MELVIN...the guy with a music diploma from ASK...a funny person...just that he has a problem with punctuality......
hehe..just as the story was about to get juicy...i have to tell you....i have long accepted the fact that i didn't get in...ouh well...not the luck then...

The second concurrent luck was getting myself a bonang(the gamelan indicator instrument..ala...mcm the one in PHSM tu)....i just got the whole set last month...and it's a beauty!!!!..i don't know how i managed to persuade my dad...to pay half of the price...hehehe...but i've always been his precious daughter...and he'll always be my Great dad!(bodek)...i said to him...that it'd be nice if we could put it in the living room...as one of the antique....Right!...it ended up stranded in my crowded room!...i can't help it...it just breaks my heart to see little adorable devilish kids plays my bonang like a drum set as though they were dave grohl.....NOOOooooo!!!!...my gamelan family tried to scare me with the old superstitious saying that at nights...i will hear them playing by itself...DAmn you!

Third luck from the sun....was having to be invited to go for a cultural visit to indonesia...solo...where my gamelan daddy bought all the gamelan sets...i'll be going there end of this month..with my gamelan siblings...and some admin team from my Uni. we'll be going to one of the gamelan maker place..Pak Sukirman...long live!!!...to see how it was made from the scratch...and to learn some tunes...we'll be like kiai kanjeng team in no time...wooohoooo....

Fourth luck.....Neo..the genius friend of mine...informed me about one of our lecturer..Dr. Salina...proposed him to do a final year thesis with her...and the title is...Malaysian traditional music:the advanced sound filtering and synchronization.....let me translate this to you...she wants to do a project on electronic gamelan!!!!!...honestly i have thought about this with my gamelan siblings before...thinking that it wouldn't be an appropiate case..we just had a good laugh at it...and now...as Neo is not a slightly bit interested in it..coz he doesn't play any music...he refered my name to dr. salina...thanks neo! i love you!!!!..hahahah

ahhh..what a beauty...just how much luck can you get?...i have a dream...I wanna be out and about...living in foreign countries with the command language is not English...to learn the their language...and also to teach them a piece bit about our malaysian heritage of gamelan..yup that's right...historically..gamelan is originated from java and bali...but on the musical terms...we preserve our own unique songs composed by our Sultan...
hmm..i have written a few contemporary gamelan songs...if i had more time..i'd try to record and play it somewhere on the net...for a lil piece of hearing..and i have a phototaking project with my friend....to take some unique pictures of the bonang..(my name was also encrypted on it..only that my gamelan teacher spelled it wrongly!!!...faz with an 's'")...:(....love gamelan...."a sense of art in a form of music"...i quote gamelan