Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Lifetime Readjustment
trying hard to go to class everyday....
i know...i sound like a lower class non-eager student....well indeed maybe i am....
it's just getting worst.....i can hardly find any motivation....yes it's my last semester...and?
most of my classmates are the smart-elitist-students ...i don't pretty much care...never seems to bother or either motivate me throughout the years.....
i just don't understand those average ones....who thinks they're better off...and merely making a statement like "i'm on top of the world".....i don't care...i no longer have the mood to deal with low-lives....
keeping the gamelan club moving again (there has been a long pause since lecture days begin....and we haven't started with our usual gamelan practices on friday....and i have sensed some background complaints)......yes....that's is almost everything they're capable of...complaining....gossiping....
i practically hate where i am...what i do...my immediate surrounding .....
i've been having goosebumps lately..i'm not sure what's keeping me in that mode...only that mom's been complaining about her aching right arms (the side where she had her breast removed)....and it's worrying me a lot.....and ....today..my best friend got into an accident...but she's physically okay.......
everything's just not right.....
i know...i sound like a lower class non-eager student....well indeed maybe i am....
it's just getting worst.....i can hardly find any motivation....yes it's my last semester...and?
most of my classmates are the smart-elitist-students ...i don't pretty much care...never seems to bother or either motivate me throughout the years.....
i just don't understand those average ones....who thinks they're better off...and merely making a statement like "i'm on top of the world".....i don't care...i no longer have the mood to deal with low-lives....
keeping the gamelan club moving again (there has been a long pause since lecture days begin....and we haven't started with our usual gamelan practices on friday....and i have sensed some background complaints)......yes....that's is almost everything they're capable of...complaining....gossiping....
i practically hate where i am...what i do...my immediate surrounding .....
i've been having goosebumps lately..i'm not sure what's keeping me in that mode...only that mom's been complaining about her aching right arms (the side where she had her breast removed)....and it's worrying me a lot.....and ....today..my best friend got into an accident...but she's physically okay.......
everything's just not right.....
6 Comments:
take a deep breath. hold, then let go.
life is full with opportunity and problems at the same time. it's up to you to decide, it's up to you to act upon it. and secret of running a beautiful and less stressful life is not to compare yourself with others. because at the end of the day, you are not them and vice versa.
cuma, since it's your final semester - if i may, one advice that i wanna give you is to study a bit harder. ou have spent years studying, and trust me we don't wanna to screwed up towards the end of our semester kan?
probably time to change. we are human, we live in a constant changing environment. so, when we get bored - time to change .. go out and do something different.
we live in the world which is in circle motion, sometimes we are at tthe top of the cycle, sometimes we are in the middle, and sometimes kat bawah. but trust me, we will never gonna stuck there forever.
and when everything is not going the way you wanted, keep your faith. coz Allah's knows best.
ALLAH knows what is best for us
So why should we complain
We always want the sunshine
But He knows there must be rain.
We always want laughter
and the merriment of cheer
but our heart will lose
their tenderness
If we never shed a tear.
ALLAH tests us often
with suffering and sorrow
He tests us not to punish us
but to help us meet tomorrow.
For growing trees are strenghtened
if they can withstand the storm
and the sharpness of the chisel
gave the marble its grace and form.
ALLAH tests us often
and for every pain
He gives us
provided we are patient
Is followed by rich gain
So whenever we feel that
everything is going wrong
It is just ALLAH'S way to make our spirit strong.
Author Unknown
tak pe, menda tuh khas utk nina tapi am utk semua org. we need to be reminded once in a while, adat la manusia kan?
zuhri....
hehe..thank you thank you...do i sound stressed out...i'm actually not...saje mood tak betul....maybe Puan Muda Stress(pinjam title jap cik PMS)
syndrom is coming...biase la kan...hehehe
bertique...
special thanks for the long words of motivation....
i'm a very practical person....if problem arise...i won't hold on to finding solutions....but the thing that's bothering me is that i don't have a problem ...or maybe i do..but it's unnoticed...or if i do notice...i don't have a solution for it...as it is not in my power of control....
so everything's normal...but i'm just "blur" at the moment...i think u can even ask iris and pinky...i think when they're talking to me...i'll look blur...it's like i can't process what they're saying...hehehe..sorry girls...korang faham la aku time blur ni kan...
zuhri again
eih....you pun tersemangat..jom semangat baru everyone...
la femme...
jom nangis ramai2..hehehe....
one thing for sure is i'm never gonna screw up my last semester...damn...i waited 4 freaking years to get the hell out from here...i won't tolerate extension of semester...
duit scholar dah masuk...hehehe...at least something to look forward to....simpan...habis belajar nak travel!
gagaga been there before. rasa mcm nak berenti je tapi rasa rugi pulak, but trust me, you'll get tru it. All the best!
mental muz...
yeap i know...really soon i hope...real soon...
happy to know you went through it fine...
now settled with your dream job at intel....
bestnyer!!!...my bro's moving there permanent..dah dpt rumah...his wife is moving there this CNY...he already asked me to go....i said "tunggu rumah dah kilat" baru i pergi..and most importantly dah ade internet..hehe...
how's intel btw?
nina mmg blur skang. sorry sbb aku dah x byk 'share everything' ngan ko sbb aku pun blur2 gak. Byk keje tp tanak buat 1 pun.hehe..
setanded la tu
p/s: help!! bile la loan nak msk. tak thn dah mkn megi+bubur nasik ngan fiza tiap ari..huhu
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