The Reasons of Why I Do the Things I Do...Unpredictably & Predictably

On Being Buzy

I'm a normal human being
I'm keeping myself busy cause i can't stay unoccupied for long as i will go crazy doing nothing
I'm a regular student who's trying to catch up with her studies
I'm a net addict who browses around for information and sometimes ignore chats...
I'm usually glued to the computer settling my assignments and thesis
I'm a leader of certain Club and Organization which i need to attend to as part of my obligation
I'm a daughter who cares for her family and rather spend her weekend at home..with them
I'm a friend who has best friends who needs best friends at their gloomy moments...
I'm a social person who neutralize my lonely days with fun and friends..
I'm a person who sometimes need my own peace of time
I'm splitting my time in a day for all these...so if you think that i'm making excuses...think again.

On Sudden Mood Swing

i get tired of keeping up to my hectic life....
i get tired of listening to what other people perceive of me...
i get tired of people telling me what to do...
i get tired of people disrespecting me
i get tired of listening to the same thing again and again...
i get tired of people trying to take advantage on me..
i get tired of being lonely...
i get tired of being around people....
i get tired of money issues.....
i get tired of assignment and thesis burden...
i get tired of always trying and never getting any return
i get tired of myself for no reason...

On Love Wise

I don't have time for a relationship....
even if i do...i need a man to love and to be loved...not a boy to babysit....and tell them what and what not to do all the time...
i define a man as a person who knows how to make decisions...who will not give me a hard time all the time...who i can't reason why i love them ...i just do....who have their own dreams..and be supportive towards mine....
call me a bitch for maybe i am....i don't care.....

I'm not choosy..most people think i am...
i just don't go accepting anybody who comes along the way just to fill in the blank....
and later decide that things just couldn't work...and move on the next...
i spare you from wasting your time as well as mine.....
i'm defensive over matters of feelings when it comes to love matters...
i'm don't wanna hurt or be hurt...
I usually open up the door of chance to everyone..but silently decide wether it's a Go or No-Go
A No-Go would usually end up as a normal friend that i cherish so much and none other..so i'll get annoyed if they tend to go overboard...
A Go so far has not been in my list of luck.....it's either they're someone elses fiance, or bf, or husband..with the lame reason that ( i discover you late)....or too far to be reach at moments of need...or typically they're not into me..hahahaha..hands off of people's property.....
so am i really that choosy?..or the choice is just never mine?

On Procrastinating

This usually comes out as a rebound to stress and too much of burden....
It's easier thinking about food rather than datelines...it's easier to waste time on the internet learning web designing which is not at all related to what i major rather than working on programming as assignments....
i watch movies during exams....i skip classes to finish up assignments which is due on that day.....i go back home when i'm fed up with everything
it's a bliss to just run away ...but sadly i know by hook or by crook...i can't...

On Being Angry/Emotional eruptive

i always remind myself to be positive and patient...
i'm aware that people get angry when things doesn't turn out to what they expected...
when i receive too much burden..it's just a time for a burst out..be it eruptive, or in terms of tears in laughters....or smashing paraphernalias..or just shutting off from people....or saying things i don't mean to....
i just realize that i can't store everything inside...it has to go somewhere...and if it's to any of you..i'm sorry....

I conclude

I sometimes need my space to do my wrongs ..... and the spurr of the moment..regret my doings...rethinking of the situation again....and recovering...and preach myself to corrections....just please do not shun away from me for my alienating behaviour...as i don't get to do it everyday...(not that i'm allowed to do it sometime)...people just don't understand me by seeing my laughters and hearing my jokes when i'm feeling all blue deep down inside...so sometimes when i show it off...they just think i'm acting weird